Saturday, 20 September 2008

Fear of the Unknown


All bloggers In Their Igloos
Something has happened to the bloggers this weekend. Dr Rant has not appeared. Witchdoctor is subdued and Jobbing Doctor is trying to write about things to keep his mind off the real issues. I believe everyone is utterly shocked by Debra Shepherd's death. It has stunned the blogsphere, stunned the doctors-only web site she frequented and placed most doctors into uncertainty.

Well, Debra Shepherd is not the only death that happens at the General Medical Council. They destroy lives and most of those lives are recorded here. Debra will be forgotten just like all the people the GMC have taken from this earth. Like all the doctors and families we forget.

I am sure if I had died in the year 2000, the posters on **** would have said " Ah, well, she deserved it and we all said she was crazy anyway" and just moved on. I doubt there is any kindness in this profession of ours. I have found droplets of kindness in people like Witchdoctor and perhaps even Jobbing doctor but in general the profession is a cruel place. Debra found it a cruel place because that is what she told me. It is a cruel, unhelpful, cold place where your peers judge you constantly. That could be seen by the discussions regarding her, each posts analysed, contemplated upon, dissected, each person doing their postmortem on her mental state through her posts. I wonder if anyone found her grave and placed flowers on it?

I also want to know why it was me and not anyone else on **** who discovered her death? For me it was an accident - a thought that happened after midnight. I was not a close friend to her as many posters on the doctors-only website were to her.

I am surprised that not one of the forum's posters asked why Debra had not been posting anymore . I am surprised no one thought to mail her or phone her or check how she was doing. She seems to have died silently. She seems to have died as Mozart did. We all lead our busy little lives and never stop to think of others who may require help.

In life, everyone is too preoccupied doing their own thing.

Take Richard Marks of Remedy UK for instance. He stated as follows today :-
"I've been completely snowed under this week with non-Remedy work and am getting a bit behind, so sorry I haven't been in touch sooner"
Yet, he had enough time to post on that same forum about Debra Shepherd and discuss the pros and cons of Shepherds posts with Liz Miller. Richard of course thinks I was born yesterday and that that none of us notice. Richard though is Richard - just like every single person on the forum - busy with being busy. We love people when they are happy, fit, healthy, have good careers and are accepted into the fold - and we forget them when they find themselves in trouble or are ostracized by their peers. And so everyone is too busy for anyone these days. This sense of being "busy" always amuses me somewhat - because doctors are of the view that they are the busiest in the planet and no other mortal is busy :). I ought to tell the many many mailers or those who search for help that I am too busy - in fact I don't think I have ever told anyone I am too busy for them - we all have to make time.

The kindness has disappeared out of the medical profession. What is it about us these days. We fail to take care of our own. Debra Shepherd is simply a product of the fact we as a profession are uncaring by nature. Some spend their time conspiring to backstab their own friends and take a certain pleasure in it. A wicked sense of glee that arises out of power. Perhaps the profession, medical school, peer pressure makes us the people we are - totally uncaring and cold about each other - unwilling to help, overlooking those in trouble or judging them at posh dinners while we all gloat about how great our lives are. Are our empty selfish decadent lives really so great?

The fact remains that since the above news the bloggers have lost their fire to fight. The day we stop raising important issues or caring for one another is the day we all truly die. There are of course more meanings to death than just physical death.

It is very easy to blame the death on the GMC. It is though harder to blame Shepherds death on ourselves. As the Inspector Calls play states " We are all responsible"



2 comments:

Dr Liz Miller said...

You are right, I have known Richard for a long time. Ask him about the Westminster Summer Ball in 1976 and whether two people on a Bantam 175 motorcycle are faster than a man running whilst waving a stick, and how you get a motorcycle across a railway bridge.

Richard does phone me from time to time, largely I think to check that his reputation as a medical student is still intact. He also knows my cousin. Richard, of course your reputation is in safe hands! After all we have learnt from the Scot Junior that what you do as a medical student can badly affect your later career.

As you can see, it is important he keeps me sweet!

Dr Liz Miller said...

Rita,

You raise a wider point.

The problem of people posting even when suicidal is one which we face from time to time on the Doctors Support Network Forum. We have a clearly policy to deal with this. As do any almost all the email forums we contacted whilst setting our own forum up. We are happy to advise Tim Ringrose with respect of the Couch.

The three most important points are
1) our forum is secure, not completely secure but as secure as we can reasonably make it.
2) it is effectively moderated by people with experience and who care about the people who post.
3) we have distilled our own and others experience into a document, that we refer to depending on what is happening on the forum.

Until those three conditions are met, it is irresponsible for DNUK to run a forum such as the Couch, targeted at people in distress.